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Friday, February 02, 2007

the feeling that kills deep inside


again, i proved that milo is all u need to survive the day.

im here to blog again. cos i really need to just destress myself now. i have been studying too much..and being at home now just freaking kills. being with those who just don't understands..my brain's half dead now. it was totally dead just now but the 8 hrs of sleep had helped alot..

ok so i went to sch ytd. planned to study for bsbm paper the whole day. but i realise that the whole day wasn't enough to finish studying. so, at 10pm, me, zh and van decided to just stay over in sch to finish it all up. and so 10pm, from moberly, we went to the EEE block where the lights never go out. and so we studied and studied till 6am and went back to moberly. i took naps in between to just give my brain a break everytime nth seems to get into my head. and the freaking EEE blk was so so cold. it just make me miss my comfy bed so so much.

went for the paper at 9am. and shit it was like !@#$%. its was difficult. oh well hopefully i pass. and guess what. i was so freaking tired that i was practically dosing off at the 1st part of the paper. and aft the paper i went home, braindead. i was dragging my feet all the way home i swear my bro will kill me if he found out that i wore out the sole of his slippers.

and here i am. woken up at 8pm. and i realise all i had for today was a cup of milo in the morning. and guess what. i have to cook my own rice if i wanna eat now. cos why, nobody cares if i had to eat or not. the pple in this hse just happen to think abt theirselves only. hai i hate this. i really do. it just makes me wanna give up and not eat anything till i starve to death. but i know that wun happen. i wun let that happen..even if i have to live in this world alone, i know i will make it by myself.

2 more things to worry abt now. my last paper on weds, and my hp bill. shit i have to pay it all off by monday. all 300 bucks. and if nobody's gonna help me, i'll just pay it all by myself. somehow..


wow i hate this freaking feeling. oh well, just have to fight it now.

cheers for now

posted at 4:56 AM